#but idk I don’t…. want that to be me
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I’m going to phrase this delicately because I’m so deeply grateful and awed by the support I’ve received.
But I will say it is a little anxiety inducing how many people feel they can talk about coming home whatever way they want openly and publicly because it has “numbers” or whatever (referring to my own work like this makes me want to claw my eyes out because they baffle me and I don’t necessarily feel I deserve them but it’s important for context).
This is Especially true for the way people speak under things I very much see. Art of the fic. My Twitter mutuals posts. Things I will very obviously interact with. It feels like someone is walking into my back yard and talking shit as if I'm literally not standing in said yard like this 🧍
You make something for a community for free as an act of passion and then the community in turn becomes something that isn’t quite accessible to you anymore. I’ve seen this happen to a lot of fic writers in my previous fandoms and idk man it’s just kind of a bummer.
Like. Fanfic and fanart is made by people in the fandom for the fandom. It’s not work being produced by some distant people in Hollywood who shouldn’t be in the fandom space in the first place.
Idk, it’s actually pretty rare that this happens to me but I wanted to mention I am a human who can very much read the things you say guys 😭 like if you reblog art related to my work and call it a bunch of petty names and say you had to dnf I can see that. It’s totally ok to feel whatever way you want. But maybe don't feel that way in my back yard.
Again. I’m so grateful for everything I really am. You absolutely do not have to fuck with my work. Fuck I don't fuck with my work sometimes DKLFJSDHF. This is probably the last time I’ll talk about this because the last thing I want to do is come off like I can’t take criticism and I’m ungrateful. But sometimes I really am chewing at my enclosure like IM RIGHT HERE MAN IM LITERALLY BEHIND YOU HOW DO YOU NOT UNDERSTAND THAT.
#on the upside I have definetly developed a thicker skin over the past month#I genuinely mean it things that used to phase me now just kind of annoy me#but on the other hand#I do feel fic writers should be able to be members of the fandoms they write for#I’ve noticed some of the other writers in this fandom once they get attention do not interact much#but idk I don’t…. want that to be me#9/10 chance I’ll feel weird about this and delete in the next five minutes to an hour#but yeah sometimes I do feel there’s this ‘shut up and be grateful’ thing that gets imposed on me#but I can be grateful and also set boundaries and talk about things that make me stressed or uncomfortable me thinks#never something i'd do on twitter. but something i'm going to cautiously attempt here#honestly if this helps one person realize how to better interact in fandom spaces online i'll be happy#also side note since im leaning towards maybe keeping this up#im literally fine. i'm big chilling right now. posted this in a good headspace over my coffee yada yada#no need to defend my honor or point fingers you know#also i know to an extent that this stuff is inevitable#and i cannot stop it or whatever. but again. i'd at least like to say it just the once#at this point its not even the crit itself that makes me feel a certain type of way#it just makes me feel kind of invisible and dehumanized
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hobby crafts and great and everyone should get into a hobby craft, but I really really really really need people to do at least a little bit of research into what they’re interested in and learn important things such as that fact that polymer clay, air-dry clay, and resin are NOT food safe. yes that includes clay that’s been coated in a clear coat like mod podge (the dishwasher safe mod podge is not food safe)
the reason that some* ceramics are food safe is because glazes melt into essentially a thin layer of glass on the surface, and the clay is heated to a temperature that vitrifies it. and I say some because not all ceramics/glazes/firing temps are food safe, and that’s a whole other deep dive of research for people who get into ceramics. but the point is that most people can’t do that at home, so they look into non-ceramic materials and assume that’s a cheaper and easier way to make food-safe items, when really what’s going to happen is all these materials will leach into your food, especially with heat applied
also can resin creators wear proper PPE with gloves and respirator, I am begging you, that shit is toxic to touch and inhale
#idk where I was going with this#resin videos on instagram piss me off#use non ceramic clays to make cute jewelry and figures and stuff#don’t make mugs unless you want to drink plastic
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(Late) httyd anniversary screencap study pt. 2 <3 + process video! (I never show mine cuz they’re full of chem equations and jumpscares but this one is ok <3)
Also random toof
I’ll ever stop thinking about them ok BYEE
#httyd#hiccup haddock#toothless#ofc tumblr ruins the vid quality#idk what else to say uhhh I remember watching this movie everyday on my dvd#when it first came out#and then I watched it on the big screen and fucking bawled my eyes out to test drive#where no one goes krilled me#I want a toothless plush now 😔#OK BYEEE#also don’t mind the second user tag I might post this on my insta cuz I like it very much 😌
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friend wanted to see my tumblr, and when i told him i can’t show it to him bc it’s basically my personal diary he went “oh so I can’t see it but a bunch of strangers on tumblr can??” he literally does not get me. no one will get me like the people in my phone get me
#It’s just so different#even though it’s public it still feels secret and safe. i feel comfy sharing a lot more on here than I do in my actual day to day life lol#in my head I’m also just speaking to myself 90% of the time which helps#if a friend off tumblr saw my thoughts I’d feel so weird ab it#esp bc they might get the vagueposting about certain situations and tell mutual friends#no thank u. this is for me. I’m not about to start censoring my thoughts bc someone I know knows my tumblr#u guys literally saw me have LIVE BREAKDOWNS#meanwhile I’ll have the worst fucking day in history and tell no one about it. I’m already cripplingly private but way more so in real life#this is basically a low stress journaling outlet for me. it’s so important for me to maintain the separation#like this is actually my diary & has been so handy for letting out emotions / articulating thoughts / staying on track !!#& I’ve met so many kind people on here who actually get me. which is so hard to find irl bc I’m surrounded by pre-med gunners/overachievers#who are by standard not very good w emotion & can be competitive/judgmental. or at least it’s hard for me to be vulnerable in front of them#and I’m part of that crowd so I reserve my emotions only to a handful of very close friends#it’s nice to hop on here and express negative emotions!! or positive emotions!! just whatever I want and it’s low stress and people get me#I don’t have to worry about judgment or competitiveness etc etc#like everyone on here is so kind & nice & understanding. & just a breath of fresh air from the types I run w. it’s just nice to have this#so idk that’s why I think I’ll always be strict about keeping the worlds separate. it just works#p
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funny post for all 7 of the wkm fans still out there
original image snork Zz snork zzzzz
#markiplier#darkiplier#darkiplier fanart#wilford warfstache#wilford warfstache fanart#wkm fanart#who killed markiplier#markiplier fanart#markiplier egos#squinkoblinko#darkstache#???? idk ig maybe if you want it to be#my boyfriends more into this stuff than me so sorry if some tags don’t work zzz#sorry no tf2 post LOL#what else do i even tag uuhdgdw#picks nose scratchesbutt or smtn
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Sorry for the lack of posts yall please take this genya doodle while I try to get my motivation for art back up again🙏💜💕
#I am having an artstyle crisis#where I am insecure and hating my art and wanting to upgrade my artstyle#it is so inconsistent and idk where to start🥲#and I am having art block with no motivation to draw anything-#*crying whimpering noises*#(don’t mind me venting in the tags jdnsksjsk)#art#digital art#drawing#doodle#sketch#genya#genya shinazugawa#kny#kimetsu no yaiba#demon slayer
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clingy!chris who can watch you shower without thinking anything sexual. he sits outside the tub on the clean little bath mat, watching you lather shampoo onto your hair. the water droplets dripping down your bare body didn’t faze him, neither did the way your nipples perked under the shower. he rambles to you about his day sitting cross crossed while you rub bubbly soap all over you. he toothily smiles as he talks, recalling his long day. he helps dry you off when you’re finished too, grabbing your pink hello kitty towel and wrapping your naked body in it. he sits you at the vanity he built for you, you applying your skincare while he combs/brushes your wet hair. he braids it messily with a cute pink rubber band at the bottom. something so simple as being in your presence after a tiring day was enough to make chris feel full again.
#idk what this is so don’t ask me#i want this so bad :c#sturniolo triplets#chris sturniolo#sturniolo#christopher sturniolo#chris sturniolo x reader#chris sturniolo fluff
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got my ribs tattooed today and i cannot stress enough please do not get them if you value your life
#ramble#i did it for like. research purposes bc i have a sternum and a rib in my books#i wanted to know what it felt like#the answer was Bad#idk if it’s 9/10 tap out pain like everyone says but it’s REAL BAD!!!!!#this isn’t even a ‘DON’T do it wink wink’ DO NOT DO IT#it was a 2 hour session and i nearly threw up twice and that’s NEVER happened to me before#at least now i know how much i need to take care of my rib clients i’m so sorry for doing that to you
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✨⭐️🎄and so he finds himself utterly mesmerized by the kid from Christmas Island 🎄⭐️✨
#sonic#sonic the hedgehog#shadow the hedgehog#super Sonic#sonadow#shasoni#sonic being born on Christmas Island is everything to me and I’m suprised people don’t bring it up a lot#I really want to make a comic about Sonic going back#maybe the yellow glow can only be achieved by Christmas Island hedgehogs….. silver being born there much later…#and shadow is designed after the mural so…#idk just a thought#maybe sonic ran away from a responsibility there…. been running ever since…… ¯\_(ツ)_/¯#literally flies off like a shooting star
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i will take a caitvi reconciliation arc IF it’s caitlyn snotting and sniveling at vi’s feet. like. vi deserves to be chased and pampered and treated like a princess after the shit she just put up with bro 😭
#CAN SOMEBODY PLEASS BE NICE TO HER. LIKE IM BEGGING AT THIS POINT#caitlyn we are NOT on speaking terms#i don’t want this to open the discussion of people thinking i’m bashing her YES understand why she’s doing what she’s doing yes#it’s still fucked up things to do????#idk vi get behind me for now#arcane#arcane season 2#caitvi#caitlyn kiramman#violet arcane#vi arcane#jinx arcane
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My brains making up for not being able to doodle at work sooo…my bad
#I don’t know#this is some random shit I just wanted to doodle a fem bunny#coko doodles#rottmnt#tmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#tmnt iteration#drawing#doodle#sketch#teenage mutant ninja turtles#Raph#Leo#oc#Calimari#Usagi#cause idk which one#leave me be
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Summertime Rainstorm
#doctorsiren#ace attorney#phoenix wright#trucy wright#ace attorney fanart#digital art#my art#procreate#this is inspired by something that occurred today#it randomly started thunderstorming super hard out of nowhere (which is wild bc I live in the middle of California)#and so I went outside to go record a video of it#and my dad came outside after me and he had me set down my iPad and my headphone#and he dragged me out into the backyard and we literally danced in the rain 😭#I was wearing socks but it was okay bc I actually don’t mind the feeling of wet socks#also the puddles were all warm bc of the hot cement#and so I drew Trucy and Phoenix doing the same thing :3#Trucy’s wearing the outfit I was wearing (except I swapped my bat wing hoodie for her cape)#and Phoenix is wearing crocs bc my dad was wearing crocs#idk I just wanted to remember the moment and so I immortalized it in fanart 😁
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can you draw candy as fiddleford. plz plz plz OuO
Oh believe me I have,,, SO MUCH ART of Candy as Fiddleford she literally drives me wild
Take this massive dump of art of young Candy and Dipper because they made lose my mind in the best way possible 💥💛💥
EDIT: A kind soul named DastardlyWLW decoded all the codes in the replies because I was an idiot who forgot to write down all the codes before I merged my layers, so if you wanna know what the codes all say just look in the replies and thank them for saving my sorry ass 💥💛💥💛💥
#relativity falls#relativity falls au#gravity falls#gravity falls au#gravity falls fanart#gravity falls art#gravity falls fandom#candy chiu#dipper pines#gravity falls candy#gravity falls dipper#trans dipper pines#he’s very important to me <3#art#fanart#gf fanart#gf fandom#digital art#procreate#procreate art#citricacidart#I dont think I should tag Candy x Dipper mostly because it was like… a temp fling and not an actual relationship?#idk if anyone wants me tag some kinda ship name just tell me 💥#if you notice any spelling errors; I wrote this all in like 7 hours so no you fucking don’t#cw cursing#cw swearing
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“Ugh this person I like already has a partner!”
“Why does that matter? You’re polyam.”
Idk how to explain this to you but like 90% of the population is not and of the 10% that are like half of them are cultists.
#idk just always hated that response#like ‘well maybe they’re poly’ yeah okay how’s about a 1/10 chance#is that something I really want to bring up to someone I’m just venting over cause I think they’re kinda cute#no#I get as like The Polyamorous Representative™️ I’m supposed to be team ‘well maybe they’re poly!’ but like#let’s be honest there’s a very good chance they’re not#so I don’t think it’s that unreasonable for me to make a small vent about it#polyamory#polyam#polyamorous#polyam dating
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Many springs ago, I perceived a sea of flowers upon a lake. I thought to myself that those fleeting colors held indescribable beauty.
The next time I perceived those colors was many years later, when the medic’s tent had blinded me to all but red. The radiance of that shining star was lost on my eyes.
Now, my eyes no longer perceive the subtleties in the colors around me.
But I am content.
For I can now see the most brilliant colors in my universe.
anyways yeah why did they fucking do that to jiaoqiu bro
the planning for this experimentalish comic is under keep reading
#artwork#digital art#hsr fanart#art#hsr#honkai star rail#jiaoqiu#hsr jiaoqiu#moze#hsr moze#feixiao#hsr feixiao#moqiu#feiqiu#moze x jiaoqiu#feixiao x jiaoqiu#it can go either way tbh depending on how you read it but i personally don’t ship feiqiu#this was mostly just jiaoqiu character exploration#hsr 2.5#hsr spoilers#just in case because i actually got fucking spoiled on the plot twist and it made me so mad#experimental comic#being in art school for like 3 weeks really experimentalpilled me#(i just wanted to do something other than lineart lmao)#painted it almost entirely with a singular noise brush because i was going for those memories vibes + jiaoqiu’s blind now#so i was trying to give the impression that he can’t see clearly#for anyone who’s about to like idk get on my ass about depicting blindness wrong#i based all of these visuals off of what i see when i take off my glasses#ill do more research when i wanna get in depth with this concept but for now my -300 degrees eyes are gonna have to be the reference#im imagining jiaoqiu with prescription bottlebottom glasses now
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They were just at the mall
#uhhhhh#entirley self indulgent drawing idk#star wars#star wars rebels#the mandalorian#din djarin#din grogu#luke skywalker#ezra bridger#skybridjarin#technically#though I guess you could also just count this as them hanging out#up to you guys#star wars fanart#star wars fandom#me when I lie about not posting so I can do work and draw this instead#someone force me to render my boat pipes I really don’t want to
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